I Changed the Locks on My Heart

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New brass in the door
(Changed the locks)
On my heart

The locksmith set his case
Beside the cereal bowl
That held your key
He asked me changing all of them
I said everyone you see
His drill shook us from the door frame
My phone lit up
Can we talk?
Your message dimmed beneath my thumb
Under the sound of changing locks

The deadbolt turned the old wood shook
I heard your knock
Before you knock

(Changed the locks)
On my heart
Your key won't turn anymore
You can knock with every memory
I won't open like before
No spare key
Under the hurt
(Changed the locks)
On my heart

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The hallway camera
Painted blue beneath the frame
You tried the key
Then texted please
Then used my middle name
The chain through one thin shadow
Across the coat you left behind
I sat still through the second knock
And let my breathing keep the time

(Changed the locks)
(Changed the locks)
On my heart
Your key won't turn anymore
You can knock with every memory
Every memory I won't open like before

I used to call a boundary
I used to call a boundary cruel
If they cast your hands for me
Now I know a door
Now I know a door can love me
Now I know a door can love me
By deciding who gets keys
This lock
This lock is not a punishment
It's how I sleep inside my skin

(Changed the locks)
On my heart
Your key won't turn anymore
Not anymore
You can knock with every memory
I won't open like before

Your old key
In an envelope
No message
Just your name
New brass in the door
No message
No message