Sorry You Stayed

Sorry you stayed
Sorry you stayed

Sorry you stayed
One foot out the door
Being wanted isn't being kind
Sorry you stayed for more

Dressing room after the cameras
Makeup wipe stained on the sink
Everybody wants the clean version
I finally have room to think
You loved me loud when I was unsure
I loved that more than I loved you
That's the sentence I kept dodging
Because ugly doesn't make it untrue

Being wanted felt warm
I mistook warm for kind

Sorry you stayed
One foot out the door
Being wanted isn't being kind
Sorry you stayed for more

You waited by the stage door
I didn't even look

Months later, an old message opens
You wrote it before the show
Said you'd wait outside no matter
If the whole night went wrong or slow
I remember reading it and smiling
Then never asking how you were
That's where guilt stops being drama
And starts to be the thing I learn

Being wanted felt warm
I mistook warm for kind

Sorry you stayed
One foot out the door
Being wanted isn't being kind
Sorry you stayed for more

So I called you on a Sunday
Didn't hide behind a song
Said, "You gave me every evening
And I gave you nothing long"

Sorry you stayed
You deserved much more
Being wanted isn't being kind
I'm saying it this time, for sure

Sorry you stayed