I Meant It Then

I meant it then

I need you to know

You found the menu from the place beside the station
Where I wrote I'd follow you to anywhere
You held it like a piece of evidence against me
Asked how a person writes a thing that isn't there
I remembered how your hands were cold that evening
I remembered wanting everything I said

I won't ask you to be grateful for the good days
But I won't pretend we never had them too

I meant it then
Every promise, every mile
I can change my mind
Without the past becoming a lie

It was real
Even here, it was real

We put the books in piles and kept getting distracted
By the notes we'd left between the folded pages
There were years I didn't have to think about my answer
Then a year I kept explaining all the changes
I should have told you when I knew I couldn't stay here
I let you build a future I had stopped imagining

That's the part I have to carry when I leave you
You don't have to make it lighter when I go

I meant it then
Every promise, every mile
I can change my mind
Without the past becoming a lie

You can call me out for every borrowed month
I won't hide inside the person I was then
But the night I said I loved you by that window
I would live that night and mean those words again

I meant it then
Every promise, every mile
I can change my mind
Without the past becoming a lie
I meant it then
Every promise, every mile
I can change my mind
Without the past becoming a lie

I meant it then
You left the picture in its frame
We looked a little younger in the doorway
I didn't cross out either name